The meaning of Life!!

"I often find myself grappling with a sense of frustration, questioning the divine architect who designed this peculiar life questionnaire. It seems that no matter how I approach the challenges presented, the answer, the solution, always eludes me. I feel as though I've been handed an exam paper completely outside the scope of my studies.

I recall an incident from my school days: a simple essay topic, yet I produced a complex, unconventional piece. My teachers, while acknowledging the effort, awarded me third prize, deeming my response 'inappropriate for my age.' Life, and the essay God has assigned me, feels similarly out of place, not necessarily difficult, but certainly unconventional. I could have chosen not to engage, but that wouldn't have brought me contentment, nor does it now, despite my prolonged efforts.

This life throws constant, seemingly unproductive challenges my way. What am I striving for? Who am I trying to impress? What is my true purpose? And why does this purpose fail to inspire me?

I feel a suffocating sense of rebellion. I welcome challenges, but these seem pointless, offering no meaningful growth. Why am I compelled to perform actions that feel incongruous with my inner being? If I cannot satisfy the divine within with my answers, how can I expect validation from anyone else?

God, please cease these humbling experiences. I surrendered long ago. Please take the reins, guide me away from this perplexing existence, and allow me to pursue something, anything, that feels meaningful to me."

An unexpected encounter!!

"Today, as I settled into my flight, I was startled to see a familiar face in the row ahead. It was him – the man I met fifteen years ago, during a rather awkward arranged marriage meeting.

It was a time I wasn't ready for commitment. My mother, eager to please his family, insisted I attend, despite my reservations. My brother's advice – "Just go, eat, and come back" – still makes me chuckle.

I remember feeling overwhelmed at the time. He expressed a desire for his wife to prioritize her career, a stark contrast to my own desire for flexibility and the freedom to prioritize family.

The meeting ended abruptly when he pressed me for an immediate decision. I was taken aback by his impatience and politely declined, deferring to my parents.

Seeing him now, a wave of memories washed over me. I couldn't help but reflect on the past and offer a silent apology for my rejection.

This unexpected encounter has left me pondering the twists and turns of fate. Why this encounter now? What is the significance of this chance meeting after all these years?

It's a reminder that life is full of surprises and that the paths we take, both chosen and unforeseen, shape who we are today."

When silence speaks??

 I longed to confide in someone about my troubles, hoping to find solace in sharing my burdens. Yet, a deep-seated fear held me back. I worried that exposing my vulnerabilities might strain our friendship. Ultimately, I chose silence, leaving me to grapple with my thoughts alone. When will I learn to let go of these endless ruminations?

Navigating relationships can be challenging. Knowing what to share, with whom, and where to seek support is crucial. When sacrifices and compromises become one-sided, it can strain even the strongest bonds.

 I've accepted that my pain is a part of my journey. If it's meant to be alleviated, it will happen without my conscious effort. I'm ready to embrace whatever changes or challenges may come my way, trusting in a higher power.

New year's wish!!

 New year’s hug, a hopeful start,

A blank page, a brand new art.

May joy and love forever impart,

A year of bliss, right from the heart.