The one thought that saved my life!!

On World Suicide Prevention Day, we talk about hope and reaching out. But I want to talk about the moment before hope returns—the moment you have to find a reason to survive the next five minutes. I know that moment because I’ve lived it.

It began with a loss. I had anchored my heart to a future that could never be, and when the illusion shattered, so did I. A heavy depression descended, and in its grip, my own life felt like a burden I had to set down.

It was a quiet morning. The sun was rising, and only one of my roommates was in our flat. The thought of going to our building's five-story rooftop wasn't just a thought anymore; it was a plan. But as I considered it, my eyes landed on my roommate.

She was just living her day, completely oblivious to the fact that my world was ending. And then it hit me: my final act would become the beginning of her nightmare. The police, the questions, the guilt, the trauma. My attempt to escape my pain would become a permanent source of hers.

In that instant, I knew I couldn't do it. I couldn't be the person who destroyed someone else's peace for my own. It wasn't a grand revelation or a sudden return of hope. It was a simple, stubborn refusal to cause collateral damage. Ending your own life, I realized, is an attempt to outrun your pain, but that pain doesn't just disappear—it transfers to those you leave behind.

Life is still a complex journey. That deep sense of loss has become a part of my story, a quiet ache that I carry. I still grieve for what might have been. But I’ve never forgotten the lesson of that morning: sometimes, the will to live isn't for yourself. Sometimes, you hold on for the person in the other room. And in time, you learn to hold on for yourself again.

If you are in that dark place, please know I understand. And know that even if you can't see a reason for you, there is always a reason. Look for it. It might be smaller than you think, but it is just as powerful.

There are many helplines available who would listen to you without judgement. Consider speaking to them before you take any decision.