"I feel a deep longing to open up to someone I love deeply, but I know I'm no longer their priority. The caring I once felt is gone, and I desperately miss it. I yearn to share these feelings, but my friends are in different life stages.
Finding someone who understands these intimate struggles is incredibly difficult. Trust and respect, once broken, are hard to rebuild completely. Even when things seem fine on the surface, I feel a deep sense of helplessness. I question the meaning of a long life filled with this emptiness. I never wanted to live a life without joy, only to question its purpose in the end. I wonder if my past actions have brought this sadness upon me. Why do I feel unforgiven? Is forgiveness only for humans to offer, not the divine? What kind of person was I in past lives to deserve this suffering?
As I age, my hope dwindles, my abilities diminish, and my potential feels limited. How can I live with this sense of decline? Where can I find someone who truly understands my pain? I'm human, experiencing a range of emotions that are hard to express. You say to focus on the present, but knowing that my life feels fundamentally broken, how can I pretend otherwise?
Why couldn't you make things easier for me? I feel powerless, while you possess all the power. Why deny me this relief?"
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